Summertime is finally here..

I apologize for the lack of posts the last few weeks, finals kicked me right in the nuts and I am still nursing them back to health. Once summer kicks off there will be more updates. I promise.

-B out

The Truth

What is more important in this world than the truth? Tell me this is not more factual than when you are on the receiving side of a lie...

The truth matters in the universe. This is why I do not understand people who say that there is no truth. Well obviously that statement is contradictory because they imply that that statement is true. Right? If everything is meaningless, then what I have said is meaningless, then in essence I have said nothing at all. Right?

It is amazing how much the truth matters in our everyday lives. 

Always search for the truth in whatever you do. It is the most powerful weapon on earth.

-B out

I dont have a clever title tonight

Life goes on. With all of my friends graduatiing, and me having to find a new job for the summer, that is what I have learned over the past week. Life goes on. 

And honestly...that is the best part about it. 

No matter which way you look at it, we are never stuck in the same place for too long right? We can always look forward to the future. 

Life goes on.

We are always on the move, and we need to appreciate that for what it is, if you understand the fact that something is going to end, you can treasure it more. Take it slow. Raise your hand if 3 years ago you thought you were going to be in college forever. But your not, and it is over. And guess what? Thats ok. 

There is something big, and beautiful, and amazing, and mind blowing, just around the next turn. LIVE YOUR LIFE...and love every second of it. Because you cant take it with you when you go. 

Do a random act of kindness, make a stranger smile, ENGAGE PEOPLE! Life is to short for us to be trapped in our little world forever. 

Life goes on.

-B

Reality Check...literally...is it there?

So I haven’t updated my blog in quite a long time. My bad. I am writing this while I sit in class. I have pondered why I came to Southeastern in the first place. I left Christopher Newport University because I am looking for something. I am still searching for it. I am looking for answers to this crazy thing called life. I guess I came here to try and find some answers to why I believe what I believe. But I am beginning to think I came to the wrong place. Don’t get me wrong, this is a great school, the professors know their stuff. But I think I am looking for something besides what they offer in classes. I know I have faith, I know I am a Christian, but why is this the correct way? I mean I know it is correct, but my head doesn’t co-inside with my heart. I look at people around me here and I do not see any parts of myself in them. Some of them hang on every word of their professors, but I am so skeptical. I do not doubt God, I guess I doubt myself.

            That feels like the harder thing to doubt. Or at least, it makes me feel worse. I doubt myself in a lot of areas in my life, and it makes things hard sometimes. I don’t know if it is the same as self confidence, but it is probably close. I doubt a lot of my abilitys, but is this bad? I mean according to Descartes, this makes me know I am alive. Because of my doubt I know I exist. What an amazing statement. Cogito Ergo Sum. I think therefore, I am. Because I am writing this blog you all who read this know I exist.

            I like philosophical things like that. Reality is a crazy thing, I love trying to understand it. But if I close my eyes, will it all go away?

This Sucks...

I mean I know it has been 2 months or so since it happened...but can I just say how much it sucks that Heath Ledger died. I am sitting here watching The Patriot and he is a freakin awesome actor. 

He really didn't have to many movies under his belt considering how long he had been acting, but it still feels like an awesome person died really early.

I know I am going to be at The Dark Knight on the first day to support him. He was an awesome guy.

The Monotony of Routine OR WHy restaurants are Werid Places

I am sitting in a coffee shop in downtown Williamsburg at 1230 in the afternoon while my gal is in class. I love not having classes on fridays. I am on my macbook and listening to music watching all the students and tourists come and go. It is actually kind of amazing how so many people can come and go without ever stopping to interact with one another. It bottles my mind (yes bottles...like things are so crazy your thoughts are trapped in a bottle) how obsessed people can become with the routine of everyday life. People want everything on the fly and they don't care what the cost. I was cut in line when I got here by a lady and her daughter, they thought they needed their lunch at such a speed that I was not even in their minds. But at the same time it is not something one should get worked up over. 

I think that is true about alot of things about life. People honk the horns of their cars at me when I am moving to slow in the fast lane. Don't worry, your latte at Starbucks will be there when you get there. There is no need to almost run me off the road to get to it faster. But there is no need for me to get pissed and almost cause an accident. Life is way to fragile and beautiful to worry about stuff like that.

I wonder if those people even know that they are alive, or if they are so consumed with their schedules that they forget to live. A man much smarter than me once said that "the Journey is what matters, not the destination." The end will come, don't you worry, but the journey is what really builds character and makes a person a living, breathing human being.

If we constantly run through life we forget to experience it. And that can be the greatest tragedy of our time. 

And seriously...Restaurants? I have never understood them. We pay people to fix our food. we OVERPAY people to fix food for us. I am pretty sure i can make the exact thing at home without having to pay anyone...i simply have to buy the ingredients. What makes a sandwich from Panera so much better than the one I can fix at my house for so much less? Again, Mind Bottleing.

"Slow down everyone, you're moving to fast. Frames cant catch you when you're moving like that"-Jack Johnson

life is a sucker punch sometimes

I mean seriosuly...do you ever feel like life lands a right hook to your jaw? I mean I feel like sometimes i need to wear a mouth guard when I am having conversations. As far as I am concerned life is winning the fight, and there is nothing you can do about it. 

"Depression does not come from being weary of pain, it comes from being weary of pleasure"-G.K. Chesterton